Have you ever gone to a room then wondered why? It’s gone completely out of your mind. This is me all the time. Trying to put the milk in the fridge, I find I’m just about to put it in the bin instead. I do laugh at myself in those instance. The problem comes when it affects things that are important like work or something I’ve been asked to do. How many times have I forgotten to pick up milk on the way home!! I was told by my neurologist that there is a drug I can try that will help. Sounds easy but because I’m under the memory clinic my doctors won’t prescribe it until I’ve seen the memory specialist! So at the moment I’m stuck in a paradox of NHS protocols. Even just to see a GP these days is like finding gold walking in the street. Even if I’m lucky to get an appointment it’s rarely with the same doctor. So there’s no continuity and it’s the explaining everything all over again!

The NHS is in crisis and post Brexit is said to be in danger of collapse due to staffing and drug supplies. Maybe we need a fundamental re-think of the funding and how much we contribute to this great health system we have.

In the mean time I wait to see the memory specialist. Just have to make sure I don’t forget the appointment!!!

This week has been a break from the usual routine. I’ve had a weeks holiday! Didn’t go away anywhere but just had a week catching up with friends and family. It’s been a lovely week, lots of laughs and happiness. No fighting through security, no queuing. No ships and planes just pure having a relaxing time.

Holidays sometimes need to have this getting off the merry go round feel to recharge the mental batteries. Life and it’s direction become clearer during these moments. Clarity and purpose are strengthened and a spiritual renewal lights our soul.

Hanging on to this feeling of freshness and taking it with us to our routine lives. This is the task. Facing those hundreds of emails Monday morning can I stay centred, will life return to the fatigued, frantic craziness of work life. The secret is to stay focused on the peace and light that the break gave me and the work will flow in a renewed dimension, full of fresh vigour to cope with life’s next chapter.